Prayer for a Softening

I received this in my inbox today, in a newsletter from Trivium Pursuit.  They found it here.  I hope it touches you as it touched me.

November 22, J.C. Philpot

“By his knowledge the depths are broken up, and the clouds drop down the dew.” Proverbs 3:20

When the Lord said, “Let there be light,” instantly there was light. So when the Lord says, “Let the heart open,” the heart immediately opens, the conscience is made tender, and the soul hears and receives what God speaks. And what follows this opening? The heart receives the dews and showers of God’s grace that fall into it; and these dews and showers of God’s grace communicate to it softness, fertility, and productiveness. O how we have to learn this by painful experience! Is not our heart as hard sometimes as the nether millstone; and also our feelings, utterly destitute of light, life and power, without one grain of brokenness, contrition, godly sorrow, spiritual desire, or fervent breathing after the Lord? This painful experience the Lord’s people have to pass through perpetually, that they may know that “in them, that is, in their flesh dwells no good thing,” and that” power belongs unto God.”

Could I make my own heart soft, would I need the Lord to do it for me? Could I communicate fertility to my own soul, would I ever pant after the dews and showers of the Holy Spirit? Could I bring pardon and peace into my own conscience, would I need the Lord himself to speak with power? Could I believe, hope, rejoice, and have at my own command every gracious and blessed feeling that I desire to experience, there would be no pleading the Lord’s own promises, no wrestling in importunate prayer, no taking the kingdom of God by violence, no longing and panting for the Lord to appear in our souls.

The Lord therefore sees fit that we should walk in these paths, that we may know, “it is not of him that wills, nor of him that runs, but of God that shows mercy.”

I desire brokenness, contrition, godly sorrow, spiritual desire, fervent breathing after the Lord.  I want my soul to be fertile ground, panting after the Holy Spirit.  I want pardon and peace in my conscience.  I want all these things —  I long for them.  And I know Whom I need to ask for them!

So this is my prayer for 2007:  That God would renew my heart toward Him and His Word, and that I would be able to glorify His name this year.

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